It’s Saturday evening, Max is playing poker tonight, and I am alone with my thoughts. Although this blog is usually about business, I feel that I must write what is true, what is screaming within me.

I am afraid, and I think you are, too.

Do you know how much potential you have? How much creativity you’re hiding? Have you any idea how much the rest of us would benefit from you, your thoughts, your talents? Sometimes we hold ourselves back out of fear, but fear of what? Fear of being judged. Fear of being rejected.

Fear of failure.

If you have a moment, take a piece of paper and free write for 5 minutes. It sounds silly, but I’ve done it multiple times, and have never regretted it. Begin with this statement, “I am afraid of…” Let it pour out. No one will read it, just write. The first time I did this, my last sentence was this, “I am afraid that I will fail, and that everything I’ve worked for will have been a waste”. Let me tell you, a year after writing that final sentence, a year after pouring myself into my business and my family, it was NOT a waste. I made the difficult phone calls, wrote the awkward emails to vendors that  I thought were bigger and better than me, I had intense conversations and shed many a tear. Why? Because I want to live this life on purpose. I want to show my children that their Momma loved them, and also loved herself. I wanted my husband to believe in our future, and to be proud of me.

I want all of you to know that I’ve been there, and occasionally, I fall back into that space. My hope in writing this blog is that you will read it and realize that you’re not alone in your fears. You’re not alone in your wondering, your questioning. I’m here to tell you that you ARE amazing. You ARE creative. You CAN start that blog. You CAN create that product. You CAN look in the mirror at night, and know that tomorrow  you have another shot. What would happen if we chose not to snooze our alarm, and woke up 30 minutes earlier? What would happen if we decided that for 24 hours, we were going to love everyone that we came in contact with unconditionally? Our God made us wonderful and unique. What we choose to do with that, is up to us. I had the privilege of attending Lara Casey’s Making Things Happen workshop almost a year ago. There, I learned specific ways to help me reach my goals and plans to implement within my everyday life, immediately. If any of you are struggling with your creativity, or lack there of, let’s chat. I love you. You inspire me to be better, to do better. I can’t wait to continue this conversation with you over a soy pumpkin spice latte! Until then….take heart…